Final day, diploma

Hoorayyy... but at the same time, sigh...

Hoorayyy as I've finally complete 2 years and 4 months in KDU. I, have finally completed my diploma (an early declare) and I am extremely relieved (last presentation today) despite I still have the final battle awaiting for me next week (final exam).

Its pretty amazing how fast time flies. 2 years and 4 months ago, I was a complete no lifer with nothing in my mind, no aims in life but just the thought of lazing at home and go "measure" the road, hahaha. Well, I dare to say that my life will never ever be the same again after such a long period in college. Having met all kinds of people and to learn from them, its a fact that cannot be challenged nor denied that the outside world is not as simple as what we perceive it to be.

Well, today being the last day of lecture, nothing special really happened (not that I hope that something will happen). Perhaps people have conditioned themselves (like I did) that all meetings do end with partings and that this end marks a new beginning for all of us. Degree. Work. Marriage. Yes. Don't be shock. Most would definitely further their education and continue to pursue a degree, few others might join the workforce and contribute to the nation's GDP(hahaha) and yes, one or two will get married. I'm not joking. As for me, I don't really know. Pursuing a degree is certainly not the only option I've got, I am really split. Marriage, nahhh... don't think so. Hahahaha... [deep inside my heart: CK up for sale, any buyers???]

A few post back, I spoke of a dilemma that was plaguing me. Well, I am afraid to say that the thing that I fear most is going to happen. "He" is going to do it. Yes, with a confidence interval of 95%, LOL. Hmm... I didn't really spoke to him, he didn't really discussed it with me, perhaps I am the one who is thinking too much? I don't really know. That is why they always tell me and I always forget that as human, we plan but being God, HE decides. Sigh, time is running out for me. Having seen so many of my friends who are 20 years plus and still haven't accomplish any significant success in life, I do not want to end up like them. I can't afford to end up like them. Someone or anyone out there, perhaps you can help me clear up my mind. Tell me what to do...